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sounds a lot like panic disorder. i developed PD unrelated to drugs. drugs (of all kind) just seem to be your particular trigger. (triggering is a real thing, despite all the jokes about it on the internet lately. i don't really have a less socially loaded term to use though.) i get it from heights, hospitals, social situations, even just falling asleep. etc. basically, it's your brain thinking you're in danger of dying, even when you perhaps are not.

i don't know where you're located, so apologies if this stuff isn't accessible or realistic in your region.

first, get medically cleared. go to a cardiologist. do an ECG, do a stress test. wear a 24 monitor. get a heart ultrasound. when i first started having panic symptoms, i was sure my heart was fucked and going through these tests helped me (mostly) get over heart attack fears.

try talking to a doctor about anxiety and panic disorder.

CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy) is a great, and medically legit way to try to retrain your brain not to panic in trigger situations. it is serious work though. i went through a 12 week program, one 2-hour session a week, with homework in between. it's not easy. exposure therapy is a big part of it. that might look something like "take a multivitamin, let the panic wash over you. note your brain's automatic reactions to it. (i'm gonna die, my heart is speeding up etc) try to break the connection between the action and these automatic thoughts (my heart is speeding up because i have triggered a fight or flight response within myself. this is not a sign of imminent death, but rather a natural response to perceived danger)" i'm not doctor, don't just do this stuff on your own. i encourage you to find a real, medically supervised program. i just want to give you an idea about what is involved.

http://cognitive-behavior-therapy.com/panic-attacks/

anti-depressants and benzos can help, if the symptoms are really acute and preventing you from living life normally.

daily meditation, frequent exercise (cardio and strength) both really help too. good for heart health too. just make sure you get yourself checked before anything strenuous.

medical marijuana (high CBD) might be worth a shot, but depends on how you react to it (not so great if it makes you paranoid)

i understand and share your trip anxiety. though, i have actually been looking to psychedelics as a potential therapeutic aid. i have to do a lot of planning and be very careful to avoid stirring up panic symptoms. proper set + setting etc.

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edit: added some more CBT info. edit2: added some heart-attack fear stuff