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Before I start answering your questions, I want to point out that you are pretty fixated on magic in your questions. I think it should be noted that magic, while it does have a relationship with paganism and some pagan traditions use it very heavily, is separate and distinct from the religious practices of paganism. Not all pagan traditions practice magic and its debatable that this sub is meant for the the discussion of the religious aspects of paganism rather than discussion of magic. You should by all means feel welcome to seek information about paganism here, but if magic is what you are interested in, you might have more luck asking in more magic oriented subs like r/occult or subs like r/Wicca or /r/witchcraft that cater specifically to the traditions that do use magic. I should also mention that I'm by no means an expert on paganism or magic, but I know a thing or two about a thing or two. On to the answers!

1. I recommend you start by reading as much as you can. There is a lot of information out there, specifically for wicca but applying pretty broadly to paganism, that you can find for free on the internet that should serve as an adequate introduction to paganism and the pagan magical practices. As you read those and learn more, you will be able to better discern good information from less useful information and better choose for yourself which tradition you feel is right for you, but as a beginner I'm of the opinion that even bad information will serve its purpose and later be discarded. I specifically recommend this book as an introduction to paganism (I know you have issues with your family, but if you can get a hold of it I personally recommend this book): https://www.amazon.com/Paganism-Introduction-Earth-Centered-Religions/dp/0738702226. Books by Cunningham, Buckland, and Oberon Zell are also pretty beginner friendly, albeit somewhat specific to their traditions. For a digital source, I recommend this: http://www.witchology.com/contents/opensourcewicca/gardnerianindex.php. It is digital collection of (supposedly) Gardner's book of shadows and it should serve as a good launching point into Wicca. I also recommend this guide: http://bluefluke.deviantart.com/gallery/52627976/THE-PSYCHONAUT-FIELD-MANUAL. It's specific to Chaos Magic (I'll talk about it in a bit) and not really pagan, but it covers the basics of magic very eloquently and succinctly. Even if you plan on following a more involved tradition, I think this document is a pretty good launching point.
   
2. It's easy to get caught up in the different traditions of magic and I think its important to understand that magic is not a D&D class. Its a practice for spiritual growth and, sometimes, for obtaining material gain. As such, I recommend you don't get hung up on the differences between different magical traditions or try to master all of them. Try out as much as you want and find a path that feels right for you. Having said that, you seem to already to be familiar with witchcraft, as exemplified by Wicca and the less popular Stregheria. This is a folk tradition of magic, more pagan than other paths and based on using tools that are already on hand. The hermetic tradition, as exemplified by the Order of the Golden Dawn, is a tradition that supposedly was created by Hermes Trismegistus, was heavily influenced by Cabalah, passed through Platonic philosophy for a while, and was eventually rediscovered in the Enlightenment and heavily Christianized. It is a very western school of magic and is very abrahamic in flavor and ideally involves a lot of props, specific incantations, and steps. It's also worth noting that Gerald Gardner borrowed many elements from the hermetic tradition when he was founding Wicca and drafting his original book of shadows. Thelema is the magical tradition of Aleister Crowley and was started when he decided that the Order of the Golden Dawn just didn't have enough Crowley in it. I don't know much about this tradition, apart from the fact that originates in hermeticism, but that's definitely a name you'll see around. Chaos Magic is a relatively new paradigm in magic, originating with the Illuminates of Thanateros and emphasizing that it doesn't matter what trappings you use in magic as long as you personally believe that they will work. There are of course various indigenous practices of magic and you might find them interesting to read about, but I recommend you stay clear of them if you aren't a member of that culture. Its a respect thing and, if you're approaching these traditions as an outsider, there's a lot that you won't understand anyway. If you do seek out these traditions, I recommend you find a teacher who can properly initiate you, and one that is actually a member of the culture in question. I definitely recommend you don't seek out Shamanism unless you're called to it (and you'll know if you are).
   
3. Other people have said this, but Witchcraft and Wicca are actually not synonymous. Wicca is a tradition of witchcraft, as are other traditions like Stregheria and arguably Voodoo, but witchcraft itself is separate from these and there are many witches who prefer not to associate with such labels. You can call yourself a witch if you feel that the term applies to you. Or you can call yourself simply a pagan if you choose to generally follow a pagan path.

I'm so sorry for your loss, OP. It's amazing to hear you got to have 20 years with her though.

I haven't researched Roses yet, but for what it's worth, Rosemary is supposed to stimulate/strengthen a sluggish body+mind in a way that clarifies thought & enhances the memory as a means to better remember our loved ones as rosemary's been associated with love & death (the book I read this from). IIRC, roses are also generally associated with love & death as well, and putting them around your house as comfort while you still grieve to remind you of her & your love for her seems to make sense. Seems like something I'd do too.

Take care, OP.

In terms of Pre-Roman British religion, there's not too much out there. The now defunct blog Dun Brython has some good information. They also have a website that's got good information as well.

If you're looking for Brythonic gods in East Anglia, you're looking at mainly Icenic stuff (the famous people led by the Cauaras (<Hero) and Queen Boudicca in revolt of the Romans).

Now after the Roman conquest, we see some interpretatio into syncretism, but they had/loved Faunus type gods.

The ones that are attested in Epigraphy are:

>Andicrose (Unwilted, not drained, ithyphallic', probably 'evergreen'), Ausecus (not sure on this one), Blotugus (Of the blossom, blooming), Cranus (of the heap, stores, barn, treasury, cry like a bird, could be spear, there's a lot of possibilities for this type of 'Faunus'), Medigenus (Mead-Begotten), Narius (manly, virile, hero, boar), Saternius (Giver of plenty, sower of seeds), Tugios (striker, blade, axe, reaping tool)

More than likely, since they were latinized, the U endings are probably O endings in Brythonic, but ya know whatever.

There's also Grannus (Grannos), and Toutatis (which is complex given the that Toutatis is PROBABLY an epithet of the people's 'Patron' god, they just use it to conceal the theonym otherwise outsiders like the Romans could use evocatio to entreat Them to turn on Their people, like they did with Eponâ on the continent, so we don't really know who it could be shrug).

There's also Andraste as recorded by Dio Cassius, who may or may not be related to Andarta from the continent.

Another source may be Miranda Aldhouse-Green's Sacred Britannia: The Gods and Rituals of Roman Britain (https://www.amazon.com/Sacred-Britannia-Rituals-Roman-Britain/dp/050025222X), though in the title it's Roman Britain, it may elucidate some changes from to then.

Also, if you have the money to spend, Celtic Religions in The Roman Era: Personal, Local, and Global is such a treasure trove. It has a solid chapter on the potential religion in Norfolk during the Roman era.

Twin Flame as known in the New Age was started by cult leaders Elizabeth and Mark Prophet. You can purchase their book here: https://www.amazon.com/Soul-Mates-Twin-Flames-Relationships/dp/0922729484

In less modern terms...I am looking for fulltrúi when it comes to romance and love and not a Twin Flame. I am a whole and complete being inside this body. I am not missing half of myself in someone else. I'm looking for someone I can fully trust and to me, that's true love.
https://thorraborinn.tumblr.com/post/116197604948/is-it-true-accurate-that-if-your-fulltrui-is-a

But if you want a slightly less cultish/delusional take on Twin Flames here's a New Ager YT on the topic: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2eETkDD2vzA

I post again a month later because this TF shit really irks me. Must be because I care about people becoming delusional and paying gurus to help them at whatever made up stage they think they are stuck in because they can't move on without them etc.

Like davemidrock said, most of your ancestors are Indo European and a lot of experts and scholars have put together a few well researched reconstructions/hypothesis's of what that original culture would be like and their gods. Here's a few books to start with:

https://www.amazon.com/Search-Indo-Europeans-J-P-Mallory/dp/0500276161

https://www.amazon.com/Horse-Wheel-Language-Bronze-Age-Eurasian/dp/069114818X/ref=pd_lpo_sbs_14_t_0?_encoding=UTF8&psc=1&refRID=4FZR86TV92PSQ8B7PSG9

https://www.amazon.com/Deep-Ancestors-Practicing-Religion-Proto-Indo-Europeans-ebook/dp/B00JF6RKXK/ref=sr_1_1?keywords=Deep+Ancestors%3A+Practicing+the+Religion+of+the+Proto-Indo-Europeans&qid=1568890408&s=books&sr=1-1*** I have not read this one but I have heard good things about it. It really get's into the whole deity and myth thing.

With Indo-European beliefs you generally get the twin creation myths, an earth goddess, sky god and of course sun/moon deities. It seems with the earth goddesses, it not really an earth goddess that embodies the whole world (although it can be) but more of a local or regional goddess of the land. The problem with that is that most of the land deity's names have been lost to time, unless otherwise recorded (like Arduinna for the Ardiennes area). I'm nowhere near where Arduinna was first honored but she is what I lean toward as far as a goddess. However, I'm actually working through outdoor meditation on perhaps learning what my local land goddesses name is. My first instinct was to find the local indigenous name for the land spirit/goddess, but again, that's been swallowed by the mists of time. So even I have my struggles lol. I think you can figure this out with mindfulness, meditation, patience and reflection. Good luck!

For a reconstructionist's approach, I've heard good things about The Apple Branch: A Path to Celtic Ritual.

Since you said you're Druidic, I would also recommend The Druidy Handbook by JM Greer. It provides suggestions for how to open and close a grove as well as celebrate each station of the Wheel Year.

Some common elements you'll find in Celtic ritual include circling the ritual space three times sunwise, purifying the space by burning herbs or incense, and making offerings to the ancestors, aes sídhe, land spirits, or gods. Celtic rituals are also presumed to have taken place primarily outdoors.

Note: I would not recommend approaching the aes sídhe or gods without doing thorough research beforehand.

Druidry often blends these practices with Golden Dawn/Masonic ritual and Arthurian themes. For example, my Druid order AODA (which is headed by JM Greer) circles the ritual space four times sunwise so you can bless the space with each of the four elements (earth, water, fire, air). Those four elements are not attested in Celtic lore that I'm aware of. As far as I can tell, that aspect is derived from Golden Dawn ritual.

Additionally, AODA calls peace in each of the four quarters by drawing and sheathing a sword that represents Excalibur. Calling for peace in the quarters isn't traditionally Celtic, but the incorporation of symbols from Celtic lore clearly is.

A book you might find helpful, especially since you have a child, is Pauline Campanelli's Ancient Ways: Reclaiming Pagan Traditions.

Some random suggestions:

If you're pulling from a variety of traditions, don't forget the Krampus.

Yule log: consider making an edible one. Add birthday/chime candles, bless it, eat it!

Make sun decorations for the tree. I was fortunate enough to find a set, a Sun tree topper with several individual smaller ones to hang on the tree. Got them a long while ago, couldn't even tell you the maker. But it would be easy enough to make paper or baked ornaments.

Humanistic or nontheistic Paganism is actually a recognized spiritual path in the Pagan movement. Often they're pantheists or what's called soft polytheists by some people.. Soft polytheists in the non-theistic sense tend to see Gods as archetypes of natural forces, thought forms (models in our own mind we give power to), or personifications of human nature rather an actual literal entities.

>This is contrasted with "soft" polytheism, which holds that gods may be aspects of only one god, that the pantheons of other cultures are representative of one single pantheon, psychological archetypes or personifications of natural forces.

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These may help. One is a website dedicated to nontheistic paganism, and the other is an anthology by non-theistic Pagans.

https://humanisticpaganism.com/

https://www.amazon.com/Godless-Paganism-Voices-Non-Theistic-Pagans/dp/1329943570

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Not currently a roman pagan but here are some resources since I'm also currently researching Roman Paganism (Or Religio Romana or Cultus Deorum). For books we have An Introduction to Roman Religion by John Scheid, which is a really good starting point. Religions of Rome Volume 1 and Volume 2: A source book by Mary Beard, John North and Simon Price, Fasti and Metamorphoses by Ovid, Nature of the Gods and On Divination by Cicero, Dictionary of Roman Religion by Leslie and Roy Adkins, Roman Questions by Plutarch, The Golden Ass by Lucius Apuleius, Roman Pagans Reading list, Roman Republics Reading list and Another Redditors List.

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Nova Roma, Roman Republic and the Roman Pagans website have advice and formats for rituals. I hope this helps some!

I highly recommend the book A World Full of Gods. It gives a good explanation about pagan theology.

http://www.amazon.ca/Handfasting-Wedding-Rituals-Welcoming-Blessing/dp/0738704709

I used this one for my hand-fasting. it's really good.

For Kemeticism, I would recommend "Following the Sun: A Practical Guide to Egyptian Religion" by Sharon LaBorde".

I've used flameless candles in the past (in fact still use 2 on my altar) they even have ones that flicker, there's also flame lamp thingies (Something sorta like this), I've also heard of people using some kind of flame app thing on their phone though I have no exp in that

https://www.amazon.com/dp/0982579861/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_awdb_t1_zgq2BbZ366RB1
There is this book. I purchased it a while back but I haven't really sat down with it yet.

This costs $20, and contains plenty to go off of for a handfasting, from many different traditions. I'd buy it and ask your brother/SIL if there is one in there that they prefer.

Here's this on Wiccanings.

Magical Places of Britain

http://www.amazon.co.uk/Magical-Places-Britain-Rob-Wildwood/dp/0957543301

I would highly recommend looking into Chaos Magic. This book in particular is a good place to start.

Hands-On Chaos Magic: Reality Manipulation through the Ovayki Current

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