Reddit reviews Surviving Survival: The Art and Science of Resilience

There's a great book called Surviving Survival that had a number of stories about how people handle the aftermath of various kinds of trauma. One of the chapters talks about some medics who were involved in post-IED situations, gathering and identifying of remains, and how this deeply affected them. It's definitely traumatic, and I would be very surprised if you DIDN'T have PTSD. I hope you are able to talk to a counselor about this.