Reddit reviews Getting Love Right: Learning the Choices of Healthy Intimacy (Fireside Parkside Books)

Just because it's in a youtube video doesn't mean it's information.

Try a book https://www.amazon.com/Getting-Love-Right-Learning-Intimacy/dp/0671864157

Some people do indeed fake love to get what they want, but that's generally the domain of a subset of people with particular personality disorders, a tiny minority of the population. You're talking about what could be described as an abusive relationship, I suggest you read up on what those are.

Feel bad to hear you're on the verge of suicide and need someone to talk to.

XY advice: When you see a fucked up person, point your back at them and walk.

When faced with PTSD, seek therapy and read up on mindfulness meditation and PTSD.

If someone threatens you with suicide and you're thinking about going over to stop them, send an ambulance instead. Threatening suicide as coercion is unforgiveable, walk away.

You found two abusers in a row. Ask yourself how you'll never find a third. Maybe a book will help: "Getting Love Right" http://www.amazon.com/Getting-Love-Right-Learning-Intimacy/dp/0671864157

I saw you say you can't get out because you have no income, so it all seems too hard. So your only real options are get income or assistance. Where to look?

I guess you're not into money, being a Marxist. Unfortunately you moved to a country where people with no money are vulnerable to exploitation. You've had enough exploitation. You're in no position to overthrow capitalism so you must now abide by it.