Reddit reviews How I Stayed Alive When My Brain Was Trying to Kill Me: One Person's Guide to Suicide Prevention

I'm sorry I can't answer your specific questions exactly, but I can give an anecdote that might help if I know some more information. Do you live in a small town or big city? Do you work for a school or company? Do you have permanent residence or are you here on a work visa?

I might be wary of letting too much info out to Japanese people unless you feel you know them *really* well, but then I don't know the regs on reporting and things like that. My closest Japanese friend whom I've known for 11 years only knows I go to a hospital for my 「心」and we've left it at that. You can PM me for details if you want. :)

Also I second TELL. I have never called them, but the have a good rep.

I got this book to help me. I don't know if you feel you have time to read it, but it can be delivered in a couple of days if you feel you can hold out until then. It's from amazon.co.jp It's not wishy-washy woo woo. It's practical.

How I Stayed Alive When My Brain Was Trying to Kill Me: One Person's Guide to Suicide Prevention

You probably already know this site, but I usually read this over and over and over again when it gets really bad:

Metanoia

I know you have your safety plan, just thought I'd see if these might help, too. :)

Edit: Added "my closest Japanese friend." My foreign friends know a lot more. I have Japanese doctors and a Japanese therapist.

P.S. Agree with u/chibicb that there are a lot of people here that successfully treat their conditions, but, as you know, the secret is support. That's why I also agree with u/bulldogdiver. If you (as in anyone) come over here with no clue about how you're going to manage things and then have a freak out and no plan or support, then go home. You seem to have a plan and support here. If it's better for you here, get your care here.

This book has everything you need to complete this assignment.
https://www.amazon.com/Stayed-Alive-When-Brain-Trying/dp/0060936215

I read it while I was actively making suicide plans and had no one to call at 3am or whenever I was feeling desperate and ready to go through with it. It helped a lot. I'm still here, obviously!

I hope it helps you.

A book that might have some relevancy at this point in your life; How I Stayed Alive When my Brain was Trying to Kill Me.
http://www.amazon.com/Stayed-Alive-When-Brain-Trying/dp/0060936215

There is a great book called How I stayed Alive when my Brain was trying to kill me. The author has bpd and tried to kill herself many. many times. She talks about addictive/compulsive suicidal thoughts.

Anyway, one of the great takeaways is to say to yourself, I feel angry, sad, betrayed, unloved, lonely, etc and I have thoughts of suicide. So you learn that "suicidal" is NOT a feeling, it is caused by what I am feeling that I do not acknowledge or want to feel. Highly Recommend it.


https://www.amazon.com/Stayed-Alive-When-Brain-Trying/dp/0060936215/ref=sr_1_fkmrnull_1?crid=16VALLPQRHAKU&keywords=how+i+stayed+alive+when+my+brain+was+trying+to+kill+me&qid=1551094286&s=gateway&sprefix=how+i+stayed%2Caps%2C214&sr=8-1-fkmrnull

There's like 20 different antidepressants out there, and each affect you differently. I would try more than two before giving up.

Plus there's hypnotherapy, exercise theraphy, acupuncture, massage theraphy, and a ton of other things that are worth trying before you give up. Even changing your diet and/or sleep habits could help.

Make it through as long as you can. You might meet that one person or try that one medication that could change your life. I'd also recommend this book: http://www.amazon.com/Stayed-Alive-When-Brain-Trying/dp/0060936215/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1335492343&sr=8-1.

If all else fails, laugh. I've heard of laughing curing diseases before. If it can do that, maybe it can cure depression.